What’s up 2019?

I resolutely resolve to have no resolutions.




I do endeavour. I like that word – Endeavour – as in I will try hard to do or achieve something or I will make an attempt to achieve a my goal.

This years targets and goals:

  • Start and finish three fics.

  • Complete 3 updates on all my WIP

  • Write 500 words each week.

That means I have my work set out. I have to pull up and get on with it. I’m gonna need a lot of self motivation! So I have bought myself multiple journals, calendars and I am ever hopeful (good lord I use that phrase too often) that my endeavours will bare all the fruit. The fruits of fruits.

See ya! And watch this space. 😘

December 2018 – Update

#SorryNotSorry for all the updates.

With me being back in fandom life and all healty again, I can finally update my website and get a backlog of art, thoughts and fic posted.

I had so many ideas just before my hiatus and now I can get back to letting you see my genius! 😉😜 LOL.

But in all seriousness, I have many more posts coming in the next couple of weeks and I’ll endeavour as always to finish my current WIP before starting anymore.

I am still taking requests for Fanart, so feel free to send them through – you can speak to me on FB or here via the contact page.

Anywho, Happy Holidays to you all and I hope you have a fantastic new year. 😘


You’re Not Racist – But You’re Certainly Something. 

You may have seen my Facebook post in the last year or so regarding my run in with Black History Supporters and the blatant disregard I received for being light skinned. If not? Here’s the below post verbatim.

I’ve gone past the same black guy handing out Black History pamphlets every morning in the freezing cold.

Today, being polite I thought I’d stop and get one. He said I could have one for a donation of my choice. I offered $1, he then said it was a minimum donation of $3??? This was just off putting.

At this point mum came over to get me moving (we’re off for coffee), a second older black guy tried to collar her by saying;

“It’s okay for white people to support black people!”

For some reason my response was…

“She is! She gave birth to me!!”

This second guy looked so offended. Like I’m not black enough for his cause. Like my light skin just wasn’t the shade he could preach about.

#OhWellHisLoss #MyHistoryAsWell

The reason I’m bringing it up again, is because it’s happened again(!)

This time it wasn’t as insulting and I could laugh it off as they appeared to mean nothing by it? But it still gets to me on a certain level. It makes me question why it’s so different here on the other side of the Atlantic.

Where are we going ‘right’ that others are going so ‘wrong’. [I’m being overly broad with right and wrong, but I’m venting, so whatever].

Again, I’m walking with my Mums – this time through Time Square (before it was Union St. in Toronto) – anyway, as I pull ahead, I hear

“Don’t be afraid to shake the hand of a negro!”

I turn back and this dude has collared my mum to get her to buy his ‘music’. Hopeing my mums don’t say anything that can be taken the wrong way, I track back and hear

“I’m not afraid to shake the hand of a Negro!!?! I’m from London!”

OMG! I near panicked my little heart out. My mum just said negro… back away mum, back away!!!

Thankfully, the guy thought my mum was super entertaining. He’s all “Hey! That your mums, that’s cool, white mums, little half’n’half, you rock that!”

At this point I’m speeding up and doing the WTF is this dude on? Smile. Smile and walk way 😬

Seriously though, do I attract people with racial chips on their shoulders? Is there some sign I’m unaware of that just shouts out ‘SAY SOMETHING RACIALLY INSENSITIVE, I WON’T MIND 😒’.

Short story short? I just don’t get the racial prominence on this side of the pond. I know I’ve been racially and sexually marginalised as I’ve grown up, but it’s not something that I deal with on a day to day basis. It’s not thrown in my face, and whilst I’m aware and very much care about the current political climate, I don’t feel like I’m part of it, if that makes sense. I watch it, I absorb it and then I move on.

A subjugated group cannot be racist – they can only be prejudiced .

Why it’s Pointless to Argue with SJW’s.


I just don’t know….

I’m from the UK, so apologies if this comes across as insensitive or just uniformed. I see the phrase ‘Black Appropriation’ bandied about constantly within the news and social media at the moment. Now I totally understand what it is and how it appears to some people as tedious and offensive. However (this is just my opinion and is probably a product of my upbringing) does the same not apply to ‘White Appropriation’. If we are asking for white people with social influence to stop ‘parading’ around in apparent black culture or to stop ‘stealing’ black culture, does the same not apply in reverse?

I have not seen/read all of the article out there on the subject but one trivial comment stuck out. One of the Kardashians was trolled on Twitter for wearing cornrows. Now some of the comments were ludicrous, spouting how she is stealing black culture and as a white person she is perpetuating offensive behaviour. I had two split second onions about this:

1: She’s not white 2: Since when were cornrows the sole property of black people??

So this got me thinking… If black appropriation is to be stopped does this not mean that we will also need to stop appropriating white culture as black people? No more straight hair, no more ‘naturally white’ hair colours, no black country singers, no black tailors, no black classical composers etc..etc..

If we’re taking ‘black’ back can the reverse not be done as well.

Now straight away I pointed out I was from the UK, specifically London. This has given me the opportunity to live in a very multicultural arena where I personally do not see the overblown per portions of appropriation.

I would like some honest opinions, even if they are completely different to my own (but please keep any foul language or derogatory remarks to yourself! That’s not an opinion, that’s hate)



No, it can’t be and is not the same and if you knew anything about anything you were trying g to talk about you would see that.



Care to elaborate a bit more? Instead of a generic ‘you don’t know anything’…


🎵🎶It wouldn’t be generic if you knew what you were talking about. 🎶🎵



So, what your saying is that you have nothing to elaborate or an actual thought out response…



No darling, what I’m saying is I’m not google and I’m not your fucking pc. And if you want to learn something look it up or find someone who is willing to sit down and have this talk with you on a subject that you are ignorant about. And your ignorance is shown by the way you typed out your opinions. It’s rather insulting actually, both what you typed out and your response. I don’t converse with disrespectful or avidly and possibly willfully ignorant people, so I won’t waste time trying to explain something I believe you’re going to reject as untruths because of your mindset.



Why are you getting angry? Would you like a hug?

I just wanted to get some insight into a subject that I ALREADY said I knew little about due to my upbringing. I wasn’t and still do not need google/Wikipedia facts about the subject. But human opinions as to WHY you feel the way you do.

I wasn’t trying to be rude when I asked you to elaborate but your original comment was lacking.

Calling someone disrespectful because their opinion differs from your own is exactly what you said I was- ignorant.


Actually doll, it’s isn’t ignorant. Not on my part. And why are you trying to fault your upbringing? It’s your own fault. Also, just to let you know, I was never angry, I’m still not. I just think you’re idiotic at this point, to be honest with you. And I don’t touch people I don’t know, let alone people I think are stupid. Just to ask that, even in a facetious manner is disrespectful which pretty much proves my point. You are an idiotic, willfully ignorant, disrespectful person. And I don’t argue with anyone like that. Have a nice day.




Wow. You feel really strongly about this. But I note you still hasn’t given me your opinion on the matter. Further validating MY opinion that you don’t actually have one.

All you’ve done is sling insults at me for wanting to learn. How clever you must think you are.

And excuse you. I didn’t offer to touch you, I think your confused. My offer of a hug was wilfully sarcastic and 100% rhetorical.

You too have a nice day and a happy new year.



Do you not know what facetious means? Omfg. Boo, go pick up a dictionary. Better yet, you wanna know my opinion? Read my blog. I haven’t hurled insults. I’ve said the truth and you can’t handle it. That’s okay. Not many can. And I’m pretty sure I asked you to stop trying to converse with me, to continue to do so is harassment and I will report you for it. Now, goodbye.




And finally we have an appropriate response!

All you had to say originally was ‘I think your knowledge is lacking, feel free to read my blog to get an insight into my thoughts…’

See what I did there? An answer without presuming and mocking my intelligence.

Oh and feel free to report me for responding to MY post. I’m sure tumblr will be interested in MY flagrant verbal abuse of someone I’ve never met. Oh no. That would be you.

Have a fantastic 2016, where I’m sure you’ll be sharing many ‘truths’.



This is why I don’t interact with idiots. I told this dumb bitch multiple times. Observe, if you poke the beast and you get more and more idiotic responses. It’s fucking ridiculous. It’s like it’s a stalker or something lmao



Wow. You have issues. You need to step off you imaginary pedestal, you’re not that special.

How about you learn to verbalise your opinion without falling into the same trap as the uneducated masses. Slinging slurs and using foul language doesn’t get your point across; it just confirms that the only thought you have is a regurgitation of public opinion.

This ‘dumb bitch’ hasn’t actually heard what you have to say. Because shock horror! You don’t actually have anything to say.

Your moronic need to lambaste someone asking a legitimate question just shows your intolerance for anything outside of your tiny, tiny little world.

It’s sad. And I pity you. You can laugh it off and call me a stalker all you want.

It seems I’ve got my answer to my statement anyway. So thank you. Thank you for proving once again that hypocrisy is once again live and well.

Please do the world a favour and stop talking. Your making the rest of us look bad.



Now look, I’m not going to lie, I didn’t even read that shit you posted other than the first sentence from my notifications. I’m not that special? Fine, feel how you feel but why are you continuously conversing with someone who is supposedly not even a blip on your radar. Let me not be that special. Like damn shut the fuck up, then.


You’ve completely missed the point. It must be very dark in that unenlightened corner of the net you’ve carved out for yourself.

I don’t think your special. Your responses push you further away from that category every time you type.

By the way, do you always assume what another person thinks about you? You appear to be quite narcissistic. You see how I say ‘appear’? That’s because I don’t assume to know you. And you know what they say about people that assume.

And unfortunately you are a ‘blip’. Actually you’re more of a ping! You know? The sound the PC makes every time you re-blog MY post. Because as much as you’d like me to ‘shut the fuck up’ I can’t wait for you to crawl back into the obscurity you came out of.

Please do try to make the grey matter between your ears do something a bit more productive. Like learning how to articulate your opinion without the use of abusive vernacular.

Do continue to have a nice day…


I admit to arguing with a trolling mentality. It happens.

Media and Fandom

It’s come to my attention these days FanFiction is now a mainstream everyday ‘acceptable’ topic; however, we as authors, artists and/or readers are still the butt of the joke in both fandom and in the public forum.

We are regularly used as comic relief for chat shows or more commonly these days as a tool to make actors, authors, generic celebrity feel awkward and sometimes downright uncomfortable whilst in front of a semi-live audience – as if both their discomfort and ours is an acceptable tool for entertainment.

Why is it funny to confront a cis hetronormative male with his not so hetro ‘fictional’ lifestyle? What is entertaining about confronting an actor – with depictions of characters they have brought to life – acting in a non canon/real life way?

The same can be sai for cis females, though I have noticed that the ‘gay/homosexual’ elements of this so called teasing is almost exclusively aimed at the male half of the couch.

If/when Fanfiction is mentioned in a serous manor, it is nearly always with mentions towards a hetro paring and staying within the confines of canon – whilst extending the plot line – essential reconfirming the original ‘end game pairing’.

Even competitions are geared towards the ‘normal’ confines of sexual pairings God forbid the main character be gay! Even when it is proved time and time again that the ‘gay’ storyline ups ratings within the 14-35 demographic.

And I’ve run out of steam.

It just upsets me time and time again when I see articles from Buzz, Huffington etc… trying to appear inclusive and non-judgmental but failing terribly. The tone seems to be ‘when I was a child and didn’t know better but know I’m an adult and as an adult I can’t condone such normal behaviour’

Well thats my thought for the week. They happen sporadically and generally aren’t that concise.

Facebook Note: One

#Step One: Keep Your Bunny Feed

Pay regular homage to your Bunny. They will attack unexpectedly and with voracity, one minute you’ll be minding your own business and the next thing you know? You’ll be typing out a synopsis for a storyline you had no intention of proceeding with.

Always be mindful that your Bunny loves to hate you.

And when in doubt? Pass that Bunny on. The infection will spread like a zombie plague. No one will be safe. No one.

The upside? Someone, somewhere, somehow will finish what you started.

The downside? You’ll be bitten again and again, and it won’t always be a nip, sometimes those little fuckers will chew until you’ve nothing left but to give in peacefully. But know that you’ll be going down with pride and alongside a legion of authors just waiting for their time to bite back!

#Step Two: Keep Your Mind Tidy!

We all do it. Don’t look so innocent. You know you do!

You have random bits of paper stashed in books, DVD cases, open Docs, notes and various scans of scribblings from work (tut tut!) The more tech savvy of you will have apps and FB snippets sprinkled across the web awaiting a more convenient time to start/finish.

Stop! No more.

Get one App (or book or binder or collection of napkins) choose your medium, don’t let it dictate to you.

Because you know those snippets? Though they may not work with what you’re working on now, they will work sometime down the line. They will work and work and work.

#Step Three: Let Your Character Flow

It can be super annoying when you’ve plotted the end and your characters refuse to get there in a timely fashion. But you know what? Let them be. They obviously want what they want. Don’t stress. They’ll get there.

Eventually. Hopefully?? And if not? Well, who needs them anyway! Not me! Certainly not you.

Actually… Ignore that last bit (bad advice, it’ll get you nowhere, trust me.)

But, if you are having trouble? Take a step back. Do something else for a little while, or you can rope in some friends to beta what you’ve got and give you feedback. They might be able to see over that brick wall you’ve hit.

#Step Four: Be Proud!

I’m proud of you. And I don’t even know you! Your work (no matter the state) is something to be proud of.

Marvel at the sheer awesome power of your imagination. Even if it’s crap. And be truthful, we’ve all written crap (I’m not even sure this entire doc isn’t crap) but and it’s a big BUT, own it. Own every misspelled word, every grammatical error, every bit of canon that you fudged. Own your errors and be proud that you made them.

In opposition, be proud of your success. Don’t shy away from you comments and hits. Brag about them, be happy. Your success will inspire those starting out (or coming back).

Bask in the joy that you give others (don’t be a douche about it) but never, ever ever let that pride go.

You did that. Well done. You have accomplished. You thought the thing, plotted the thing, and then you did the thing.

#Step Five: Delete ‘Those’ Comments

Nobody needs that shit. Nobody.

Don’t engage. EVER.

Those insufferable little know it alls can ‘Get to Fuck’ or more commonly used these days #GFY.

Embrace your inner bitch and let rip. But do it away from ‘them’.

Unfortunately uppity trolling dicks tend to ‘win’ by default. And I stress the quotations on win, because their small troglodytic minds cannot comprehend the thought that they are not all knowing, all seeing queens/kings of the arena.

They are a waste of need data space and they only have one path ahead of them.

Straight into the trash. Out of sight and out of mind.

#Step Six: Be The Best

Well be your best. That is all you can be.

Strive for the best that you can do, and if that doesn’t work? Find someone to collaborate with.

#Step Seven: Have Fun 😆

If you’re not having fun, then you definitely not doing it right.

Writing is freedom of expression, even when you’re writing the most tragically horrifying scene you can think of. In the back of your head (the lizard part) have FUN.

If you’re not having fun, then neither are your readers.

That’s as inspirational as I get. So if it helps, know that I got this from my few forays in writing and I have fallen for afoul of each at some point or other. 

Facebook Post: Two

I get that it’s exciting when you see/find someone obviously enjoying/engrossed in a book you love, but personal space is always ‘personal’ and WE ALL need to read the verbal and non-verbal signals.


Most of us are uninterested in conversation when reading – we are reading for that very reason – don’t be naive in thinking we are all gregarious socialiser’s.


If I’m sitting in Starbucks reading and sipping on my Frappuccino, it’s because I like the atmosphere NOT the company.



Facebook Post: One

This is why sometimes it’s too hard to write, if I’m tired or just not that inspired I find it hard to concentrate.


If I can’t concentrate then I can’t spell. Thankfully my dyslexia is mild and a by product of my dyspraxia. If you spell something wrong, but use the correct letters, I’m not going to notice.


BUT dyslexia is NOT an excuse for bad grammar, that’s a by product of your speech patterns and how you’ve learnt to talk – don’t mix the two up.

#DyslexiaSucks but is manageable.

#keepreading #keepwriting #stayfocussed


Random Find

Discovering Kindle Worlds…

So I was trailing through Amazon (I have an unhealthy need to spend money) and I came across Kindle Worlds? Anyone else heard of it?

Well if not; apparently since approx. 2013, if you write in a specific fandom (listed somewhere in the T&C’s) you can now publish and SELL FanFiction…

I’m very confused right now. Most publishers kind of love to hate us, right? They love the money we bring into fandoms, but we’re basically that crazy aunt no one talks about.

As usual it comes down to money. ‘We’ sell it to run ‘our’ sites, blogs, fanzines etc… and they make the bulk revenue AND they have the right to take your ideas if you publish!!!

Another odd one? LJ Smith of TVD, now publishes the rest of the series there as CW fired her!

I’m just too weirded out by the idea of selling FanFiction.